JC looked at Judas as a teacher might to a student having difficulty with the material. He was patient and kind but maybe a little exasperated. "I want to now. The Kickstarter might have edged me on a little but my desire started before it anyone decided to attempt to crowdfund the bus," he pointed out. "We laid in my bed and I felt the need to touch you. I would have continued to keep touching you but you became uncertain. It was awkward for you and so I let it pass."

He hadn't moved from the floor, still looking up at Judas, eyes a little more gentle now.

"I will never be Simon." Because of course he knew. He had always known. "This could never be casual. If I jump in, it's completely. It's head first, and it's forever. But if you don't feel the same for me... Then I would like one small consideration from you. I want to be able to live the remainder of my life without regrets. And I want all of my firsts to be yours."