That soothed a worry he hadn't even come up with yet in his mind, that the others would end up finding out about... this. Not about them, Peter would be super proud of that if Simon was okay with the others knowing, but about... anything else. If it went to that, anyway. There was the very pointed knowledge in his mind that not wanting to do this stuff with Simon meant a be-all-end-all. If he wasn't interested, even if he was still interested in Simon, it wouldn't go any further.

Since... since the hospital? All the way back then... Simon couldn't miss that expression of dumbfounded surprise. Had he been missing things all that time? Was it because of what Simon was into that he hadn't said anything? Oh by god if Simon knew he had been interested in him all that time... Peter wasn't sure if he was embarrassed or a little angry that nothing had been reciprocated, then.

"I don't want that, either." That much he knew! "I... no matter what happens, I still want to be friends." His voice stressed just a little harder than he intended. Even if they went into ... that he still wanted to be Simon's friend outside of those times. Or was there no choice? ...Ask questions, stupid.

"Or is that... not a thing? Like, it's an always or nothing kind of thing?"