There was a certain intensity on Peter's face, listening with complete focus on Simon because he knew he would get the truth and it would be what he had to live with or leave. It wasn't certain how he knew that, deep inside, but he would have staked his life on it. Maybe it was what Simon said earlier, maybe it was what people had said while they were at the club, maybe it was he combination, but in the end when Simon said he wanted the affection as much as the fetish stuff, that was going to be what he needed to accept.
Really, there was only a small part of him that made him hesitate on trying. Completely accepting, he still couldn't be sure until they tried all of this and if he even enjoyed it, but giving it a shot? That much he could do. It was the 'outside' of it that made him so deeply unsure because of what he had spoken about in the club. Tell him. Peter took a breath.
"You told me to be honest, but I would have been otherwise." His palms smoothed over the vinyl covering his thighs in a sign of his nerves. "I couldn't do it any other way. That... combination. I want someone I can... be friends with. A proper sort of relationship. If you need that in the bedroom, I am willing to try, but I can't promise anything. What we saw tonight... I have no idea if I'll enjoy that but I'd be willing to try with you. It's the outside part that makes me hesitate."
He held up a hand, indicating he wanted to say more and he needed to keep his courage together, but... give him a sec. His eyes closed, fingers curling into fists. "I spent a lot... time, effort, money... to get away from my parents. I don't want to feel like I left their control and rules to end up right back in them, you know what I mean?" His head finally lifted again and he looked to Simon, hoping the other understood what he meant. "The whole point of me being out here in the world was for freedom, to learn how to make my own choices - and I'm aware this is one, all of this - you know what I mean? I need to know just what you're looking for there, because I still... want that. To do that stuff. I'm not ready for giving it up."
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Really, there was only a small part of him that made him hesitate on trying. Completely accepting, he still couldn't be sure until they tried all of this and if he even enjoyed it, but giving it a shot? That much he could do. It was the 'outside' of it that made him so deeply unsure because of what he had spoken about in the club. Tell him. Peter took a breath.
"You told me to be honest, but I would have been otherwise." His palms smoothed over the vinyl covering his thighs in a sign of his nerves. "I couldn't do it any other way. That... combination. I want someone I can... be friends with. A proper sort of relationship. If you need that in the bedroom, I am willing to try, but I can't promise anything. What we saw tonight... I have no idea if I'll enjoy that but I'd be willing to try with you. It's the outside part that makes me hesitate."
He held up a hand, indicating he wanted to say more and he needed to keep his courage together, but... give him a sec. His eyes closed, fingers curling into fists. "I spent a lot... time, effort, money... to get away from my parents. I don't want to feel like I left their control and rules to end up right back in them, you know what I mean?" His head finally lifted again and he looked to Simon, hoping the other understood what he meant. "The whole point of me being out here in the world was for freedom, to learn how to make my own choices - and I'm aware this is one, all of this - you know what I mean? I need to know just what you're looking for there, because I still... want that. To do that stuff. I'm not ready for giving it up."