"Bedroom stuff...? You're going to have to elaborate. Because this isn't about the sex. Or about tying you up and whipping you to get off. That's not-- I can get that already if I want it. And I don't want it with you." Simon wasn't sure how to explain this to Peter because he wasn't sure where all of Peter's hang ups were right now. He was still keeping a lot to himself in terms of his questions and there was only so very much thst Simon could lay out without knowing the extent of poor Peter's worries.

He was patient at least. Nothing seemed to frustrate him. He tended to push frustration into action anyway.

"Hey listen. I want to date you. But my life in this community... I'm not giving that up. I did push a lot of it aside for J , but it's who I am inside. So it's... It's not bedroom stuff, Pete. It's lifestyle. It's everything. Obviously it should be discrete in public but I'm not going to turn it off if I go into this with you. I'm talking all the way. Everything. But I can't explain it until you are willing to talk it out with me. Or until you tell me to fuck off because you want a boyfriend that will take you to films and spend weekends watching Netflix and cuddling. I can't do it."