Touch him. Be near him. Buy the date. Don't let him leave you. You need him. He's the most important part of all of this. Don't let him go.
Those were not his words and not his thoughts, they were memories of whispers. They were catastrophes bundling up inside of his chest, just waiting to happen.
JC sat back against the wall on his bed in bare feet, one arm draped Mosely over a bent knee. He watched Judas for his body language. He watched him try to get the words out right. He watched his hair, frizzy and red and perfect, catch the sunlight from the window to his left. JC didn't shy away from answers, though.
He had so many to give.
"I've never claimed to own you. I am just afraid to lose you. You, more than anyone else-- I'm going to need you close to me, Judas. The path ahead is going to be hard. No one will understand. I'm afraid it might even get out of hand and you're so real-- I afraid that if you had distractions, you'd leave me. I'm still afraid that you'll leave me. I love you more than I love any one else. And I need you more than breathing right now. I should have just explained than become angry when you pushed me away."
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Those were not his words and not his thoughts, they were memories of whispers. They were catastrophes bundling up inside of his chest, just waiting to happen.
JC sat back against the wall on his bed in bare feet, one arm draped Mosely over a bent knee. He watched Judas for his body language. He watched him try to get the words out right. He watched his hair, frizzy and red and perfect, catch the sunlight from the window to his left. JC didn't shy away from answers, though.
He had so many to give.
"I've never claimed to own you. I am just afraid to lose you. You, more than anyone else-- I'm going to need you close to me, Judas. The path ahead is going to be hard. No one will understand. I'm afraid it might even get out of hand and you're so real-- I afraid that if you had distractions, you'd leave me. I'm still afraid that you'll leave me. I love you more than I love any one else. And I need you more than breathing right now. I should have just explained than become angry when you pushed me away."